Vanilla Pleasures

Oh the delirium of an unrequited lover's loneliness! Hades! Take me now! Any pain would be better than this heart's agony. Take me to the nether regions of your great kingdom to suffer the torments of your minions rather than leave me on this world without his love. Loner's Thread , PinoyG4M.com

" isa na namang pananaw I somehow cooked up this weekend while talking to friends over coffee. ang pagtetext (at pagrereply) ay hindi obligasyon. Ginagawa mo 'to dahil gusto mo, hindi dahil kelangan dahil kayo. Magtetext ako dahil gusto kita kamustahin, hindi dahil kelangan ka magreply. Tulad din magrereply ako dahil gusto ko, hindi dahil naoobliga akong magreply. " This  is one of my posts in PinoyG4M.com in my personal shrine here.  One lazy Sunday when the housemate and I were just talking about random stuff. Eventually, the conversation came to relationships and some common expectations.  The popularity of mobile phones in the Philippines has changed our lifestyle a lot. Communication  has been taken to the fast lane compared to a decade ago. And since this is one of  the basic and important factors in a romantic relationship, we would rely heavily on the mobile technology. Being too proactive or suggestive (or plain pushy) in a relationship has ...

Last Friday morning, while going to Yellow Cab in Eastwood with friends, I was greeted by a familiar face at Chowking. I was caught by surprise not because of the person but because i can't recall her name. I was thinking "JC? TC?" So I was staring like a deer in front of the headlights till she told me her name, Acee. Apparently, she's a friend's housemate. I've already posted an article about how I'm quite particular about my name, and here I am not remembering other people's. Well, I'm pretty bad in remembering names.When I was still teaching it took me a month to recognize all my students and another month or so to memorize their names. Oh well, I am human, aren't I?

I have been using this nick since college. It was the peak of gayspeak adding the suffix "chi" or "chie" to almost everything. Remember "namanchi" or "donchi"? Oh well, maybe not. A lot of our gay kids nowadays barely understands gay lingo. That' another story. So one day a classmate called me out, "Lanchie!" and poof! It became Lanchie from then on. Nadala pati sa trabaho at iilan nalang ang tumatawag sa aking given name. Sa mga educational institutions eh maraming mga prefix silang idinurugtong sa akin kaya't mga kababata ko na lamang ang natural na tumatawag sa pangalang ginagamit lang ng nanay ko pag galit s'ya sa akin. The only people who call me kuya are my younger cousins, my sisters at mga kasamabahay. Malabong magkamag-anak kame. Malayo. Malayong malayo sa hitsura. Naisip ko naman kaya siguro nila ako tinatawag ng ganoon ay dahil mukha akong amo?

To my incomparable J., By the time you have read this letter i would be wallowing in the memory of our time together, moments that I deeply cherish. I know not how to express nor analyze the conflicting emotions that have surged like Poseidon's fury  through my heart. It has been several days since our time on the shores of Zambales. You are more wonderful and lovely in my eyes than you ever were before; and my pride and joy and gratitude that, in the hopefully inevitable, we would share more experiences of the like together. Until we meet again, my love, a thousand kisses; but give me none in return, for they set my blood on fire. Your faithful, A.

edited: sol invictvs 05/11/2011 02:00 am Keep safe, my Santiago. My heart is with you always. To love you is like to become a child of the Anemoi, dancing with the beings of flight, basking in the warmth and light of the sun, while being embraced by the strength of the winds. Keep safe, my Santiago. My heart is with you always. You give my soul the serenity it has longed for; to be enveloped in your arms so caring, so gentle, so sweet is a sanctuary I could never afford to keep away from. Keep safe, my Santiago. My heart is with you always. The more my heart beats for you, the more my will succumbs to you; yes, to love you is to lose myself once more to your soft kisses and caresses, to your kindness and affection. Keep safe, my Santiago. My heart is with you always. Your faithful, A.